...so there I was again, looking at him from the distance, being all confused, not having a slightest idea what was going on. So what is it that he wants from me? All this playing and hint-dropping...Was there something, or did I just make it up in a desperate attempt to see exactly what I wanted to see, rather than the uncomfortable truth, which can be quite devastating sometimes. As I was feeling the lump coming up my throat, my vision got all blurry, however her big, or should I maybe say HUGE nose was hard not to notice, he was standing right behind her, holding her in his arms. I thought I was gonna lose it right then and there...


He's so sweet, attractive, sexy, charming, very well groomed, he's so...he's so everything that I ever wanted. Straight? Gay? Bi? Of course after all the attention he gave me along with direct compliments I made my ruling on that question in a matter of couple days. Little did I know, he'd been engaged for months then. Oops, got the wrong idea...again. But hey, how could I have not gotten the wrong idea if he was acting as if he was interested? :((( I can still hear him say "Hey man, have you met Kathy yet? It's Kathy, my fiance..." An average looking woman with a really big nose was smiling at me, raising her hand for a shake. My world collapsed that very second.
Still busting my brains trying to figure out how a man of such overwhelming beauty could have possibly settled down for Ms.Pinocchio. How? Why? What for?

P.S. Unlike many queer boys out there I'm not Kelly Clarkson's fan, but that one song was just a perfect fit for the entire situation :
Oh, and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster?

P.P.S. Not looking for any advice or help, it's just...well I just got hurt, got hurt big time, and that was me saying "ouch"...